I am a United States Air Force Veteran (USAF Security Police) and a retired police officer with 27 years of service with the State College Police Department.  State College is located in central Pennsylvania and is the home of Penn State University.  15 of my 27 years at SCPD were dedicated to drug enforcement.  From 2013 to 2014, following multiple surgeries and bulging discs in my lower back, I developed an addiction to opiates; later, to cocaine.

By August 2013, six months after a total hip replacement, I was using opiates on a fairly regular basis but had no idea what lay ahead of me.  Also in August 2013, in addition to supervising the Drug Enforcement Unit, I was assigned supervision of the Traffic Unit, the Quartermaster Section and the Evidence Section.  By the spring of 2014 (two more surgeries and three bulging discs later) my addiction was full blown.  I began stealing opiates from the Evidence Section and began stealing cocaine a few months after that.  Starting the moment I first stole pills from evidence, I used drugs practically every waking moment and augmented the drugs with alcohol from time to time.  In April 2015 my addiction and my crimes caught up with me and I was relieved of duty.  I went to drug and alcohol rehab and then to an intensive out-patient program.  I was arrested and went to jail.  I’ll be on parole until August 2017 and probation until 2022.

This blog is dedicated to my wife, my sons and my grandson.  To all my family and friends who have helped make my recovery from addiction a reality.  I celebrated 2 years clean and sober on April 28, 2017.  It is also dedicated to all the unbelievably strong and resilient recovering addicts and alcoholics who helped save me along the way.  I call all of them ‘brother’ and ‘sister’.

I am writing to shed some light on the darkness of addiction in the hopes it will demonstrate that even the most hopeless and destitute can find a way out.  That a drug-free and sober life is possible.  I hope to provide some hope to people who have a family member, friend or loved one who is battling this horrible disease.  A disease that is robbing us of our friends and families.

The posts may tend to be long.  I have much to reveal.  I hope you take the time to listen to what I have to say.